Pity Party! – Headed to the After-Party, Where Yat?

This is the third installment of my Pity Party series diving into my past trauma. As with the other posts, this will have subject matter that may not be suitable for all audiences, blanket trigger warning! Allow me go over some of my more formative romantic experiences. Back up to when I was 13, after…

Spock, Superman, and Hermoine

These pop icons were role models for me; someone who always felt different from others. Spock taught me to be logical, and that human behavior can be rational if you factor in emotions. Superman taught me that even if you must hide who you really are, you can still do good in the world. And…

Insecurity, Identity, and Intersectionality

Recently I've been feeling out of sorts. My life has been going quite well for me and perhaps I'm just waiting for the bottom to drop out. I have been fortunate to continue working at my job through the pandemic and just celebrated my anniversary there (a benchmark that is rare for me) with talks…

Stuck

I hate where I'm atAnd long for the worldBut I know that tryingWill have me hitting the floor I know that I'm specialThat I'm one to adoreSo what if I amWhat's it all for? To belongTo be freeTo feel safeTo truly see But I'm stuck in my pitWith my oldest of friendsDepression, ShameAnd Wanting the…

C-PTSD and what it means for me

I've recently discovered that Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is being recognized as a form of PTSD, usually brought on by prolonged exposure to traumatic environments. It isn't officially recognized in the DSM Bible yet, but many mental health professionals are beginning to acknowledge its prevalence and effects on those that have it. At first,…

The Masks We Wear

Happy Halloween! I love this holiday! I am a huge fan of costumes and dressing up. I enjoy flirting with the darkness, the scary and spooky. I love seeing people express their humor in creative ways. I don't think I'll ever grow out of Halloween. It's this time of year that begins my hectic holiday…

Why I believe I dated a Sociopath: An Analysis

This is the final installment of the Sugar Saga, related to "I think I dated a Sociopath..."and "I believe I dated a Sociopath..." Now, dear Readers, I know I made some strong claims in the titles of the previous entries labeling Sugar as a sociopath. I claimed to have observed one of the most interesting…

I believe I dated a Sociopath…

This is the continuation of "I think I dated a Sociopath..." which expounds on the experience of meeting and maintaining an unhealthy romantic relationship with "Sugar"; a soldier, a husband, a father, and a cheater. Hello readers! Thank you for coming back for the second part of my roller coaster relationship with Sugar. To pick…

The purpose and pitfalls of social validation

I've been thinking a lot about social validation lately. I'm realizing that I'm addicted to Facebook. I post constantly, like/comment often, and seek out drama so that I can put in my two cents, often unsolicited and dripping with sarcasm. I've been working to curb this behavior and instead trying to focus on content that…

Death and the Pale Horse

Have you ever had a tarot reading? I have. Imagine my displeasure when I found that I had been dealt the card of Death. Many people believe this to be literal, as I did when I was dealt the card. However, its meaning is far from literal, but denotes the ending of something in your…